Que Sera Sara?

Saying It

Posted by smgrady on March 11, 2015 · 2 Comments 

Sometimes the right words illuminate the ineffable, sharpening my deepest eyes. But sometimes words are blunt tools dulling the sky with clumsy half-formed shapes.

Lately it’s the latter. So I haven’t been writing much. Sometimes life is too big for words I guess.

I’m on a new, scary exciting path. It fills me with hope every single day.

For the first time in forever I’m excited to get up in the morning. Hopeful at the prospects on my horizon. Glad my prospects are plural.

So hopeful, in fact, that failing  — and there will be failing. heaps of it. — feels like part of the process rather than an insurmountable and shameful burden to avoid at all costs.

Enabling others to do great work and shine magic on the universe is a wonderful thing. I have gained so much in the process of supporting great writers, helping great scientists and educators and shouting about and organizing amazing, talented folk the world over.

But I am and can be so much more than a conduit of other people’s Awesome.

Don’t get me wrong. I love Awesome people. I still love Awesome. I still want to sprinkle it like fairy dust on everyone I meet.

But I want to own and embrace my Awesome somewhere in the mix.

I want to join the conversation.

And I think I finally have something to say.