bigger things

After a long bout of illness, my mind is regaining some of its pep.  Predictably, there is a magnetic draw back to things undone and promises made.  But there is this liminal space before I’m quite back up to full speed where bigger, wilder aspirations peep from my horizon. Where things I want to be … Continue reading

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Serendipity

A new year so often signifies a fresh start; a clean slate; a second chance.  But I find starting over easy, the promise of new adventures exhilarating. It’s the staying which can be hardest.  I opened so many new cans of worms last year it would be simplest (and shallowly gratifying) to throw them all … Continue reading

Standing Astride

In the slowing time of PMS I find myself often retracing my steps. Going back over trodden ground, following my own bread crumbs home. I think of it as a calibration; a tune up. It serves as a useful guidebook when I go off-roading or get lost. Today I found a younger self who wrote … Continue reading

Soft summer mornings

By now, dear readers, you know I’m part-selkie; that my quality of life is directly proportional to the distance between me and my nearest bodies of water; and that there are some magnificent things about our neighborhood beach. I like my predictability in these things. Knowing what matters makes it much easier to prioritize. Knowing … Continue reading

Things I Like — Virginia Woolf

If you told Dumas-loving-14-year-old me she’d ever be into the Hemmingway-Iceberg theory of modern novels and unspoken things she’d give you the squinty-two-eye. If you promised tightly-wound college me she’d indulge in meandering, obtuse sentences as long as the night which go nowhere at all (and that’s beautiful) she’d laugh derisively. If you tempted the … Continue reading

Things I Like — Crossing Out

Is there anything more satisfying than a To Do List item completed? The act of finishing a long-neglected and niggling task is a relief, to be sure. But physically obliterating the written effigy of such a chore is cleansing — Be gone, budget planning! Away with you, Comcast customer service! You are struck down — … Continue reading

Things I Like — My Readers

I try to be authentic in this space. It’s challenging and liberating. More often than I’d like, it is then compartmentalized from work-a-day living. I’m thinking about tackling that. Either way, I like this place for meeting and sharing. Old friends, collected like charms, drop by. My sisters-in-law keep up-to-date. My mom says she won’t … Continue reading

Things I Like — Small Holidays

Our first year together Bean asked if I celebrate Valentine’s. (He is deeply sentimental but unmoved by arbitrary dates.) I explained I don’t like holidays intended for big-wow-one-off kindness, the sort of thoughtfulness or spontaneity depicted in ads and movies I’d rather have sprinkled all across life, not predetermined by marketing execs. But nonetheless, an … Continue reading

Things I Like — Dumpsters

Those big, driveway-sized containers primarily. To look in while passing is obscenely intimate, if casual — so they are finally getting rid of that pink formica from the 1/2-bath — sometimes even glimpses of photos and long-loved armchairs and rugs with a lifetime of stories and stains. Today I found a vintage mirror, oddly oblong … Continue reading

Things I Like — Cookbooks

A cookery book tastes of possibility. Things I might make, combinations new to my palate. Imagining I am the sort of person who will concoct  a Middle Eastern themed dinner party for 12 with just the right terracotta (Actually, Polish blue tableware.) to make table. But more than that, they come with a voice, a … Continue reading